sitting heavily in the richness of a saturated, lush world

good evening –

i did a number on my sleep schedule this weekend, so i'm up late and typing the early morning away once again. this time, instead of thinking aimlessly to myself, i wanted to address my thoughts to someone. but i have no one to write to. so i hope this is okay with you.

firstly, i've been slowly filtering through my archives and realizing there is so much i've neglected to share. these are some photographs from my time in the middle of a seemingly endless autumn storm, somewhere out in the muddy rural outskirts of buenos aires. despite the unwelcome weather and annoyingly persistent mosquitos, there were these breaks in the rain that ushered in some of the most brilliant colors i've seen, colors that could only be felt fully when sitting heavily in the richness of a saturated, lush world. it's a nice reminder that joy and despair can coexist without diminishing one another. the breadth of emotions we feel is more complicated than the semantics of our language imply.

secondly, can we please all agree that the latest the 1975 album is a masterpiece?? it feels like i'm shifting through ideas scrawled on napkins, euphonies hurriedly recorded in voice memos, and late night quietness, all thoughtfully pieced together. *sigh* i don't even usually like long albums.

thirdly, i, in my infinite aloneness, took a real good look at myself in the mirror today and noticed that i've got some duh-eeeeeep smile lines and my brain processed it in a positive way and it was unusual but nice 😌

lastly, there's a line in one of tyler the creator's songs that goes "you accept me how my eyelids, my eyelids look," and it’s a shame that it’s not written anywhere as an official part of the lyrics because it deserves more attention. no one knows it but i love it so very much. it's one of my favorite lines from one of my favorite chill love songs, and i will probably spend yet another summer melting in its silliness, simplicity, and depth.

i know the world still feels very noisy and stormy outside, but it feels sweet to briefly put a spotlight on some of the infrequent but happier bits and bobs bouncing 'round in my head. i hope you have some of your own to keep you company as well.

april 2020

march 2020

quarantine: aimless thoughts without a photograph to call home

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you

soft and quiet and a little lonely

regrowth

happy first day of spring, friends! it's pouring rain this morning where i am, but the sun has been peaking out beyond the clouds here and there as if it's reminding us to look up – something that is much harder for some than others. sometimes the rain is already too overwhelming.

my good friend thomson posed this question: while social distancing can help slow down the public health clock, how can we also think about slowing down the economic clock to match? some of us are lucky to still have work from the safety of our homes, but others are struggling to pay bills and put food on the table. others do not even have shelter.

today, on the first day of spring, when the earth is in a phase of renewal and regrowth, i'd like to ask you to think about how can we pass along that same seasonal sentiment to those around us? while we are seeing some movement on the policy front, we cannot just wait around and hope that things will get better on that front. we can do more to help. if you are salaried and financially comfortable, i implore you to look into donating to your local food banks and housing organizations to support your community. you can also make donations for direct financial relief to freelancers, service industry workers, and more through https://www.leveler.info.

if you need help doing any research on where you can put your money, please feel free to reach out and i'd love to poke around with you. take care. x